For what it is worth, I am doing better today, though rather weak and woozy. Eating is something of a hassle, but things are improving. On another more interesting note:
Kate and I were talking the other day at the CCCB and something that she said struck me, because I have been frustrated that I haven't been painting for quite a while, very furstrated.
And all of a sudden, it is flowing again.
Know what it is? Exams are done, I have the mental space to create, to not feel that I have to be doing somthing else.
I have the physical space, I have the materials, I do, in many ways have the time, but I did not have the room to think about how I wanted to say what I wanted to say cause I always felt I had to be doing something else.
well, I've got a couple weeks till that dies off again.
Then I think this over again, and I think of all the artists who have worked and do work with more hassles and difficulties than I ever have, and wonder if I am just spoiled, or under-driven...and then I think about the cultures that produce great art and most of them are at a time and place where there is a surplus of wealth and therefore time from simply getting buy.
A kernal of truth lies in there somewhere...a typical balance of what is basically needed.
An interesting set of ideas to rumble around.