Thursday, September 18, 2008

Half empty

I am wiped.

I was going to post photos but even those aren't organised.

I have been feeling pessimistic today, which I don't like, and which is unusual for me...I think it is the book I am reading: Karen Connelly's The Lizard Cage. It is insanely and horribly violent. Hard for it to be anything else since it is set in Burma, in a prison, during the period of Aung San Suu Kyi's brief exit from house arrest.

I would normally simply put a book like this down, and I am surprised that I have not, but it is a book more about nobility and hope and remaining human in totally inhumane situations, so I persist. It is, I think, bringing me down. Despair about the depth humanity can sink to.

I would also like to note that this is the first week of school and I swear it has been going on for at least a month and a half. Will it NEVER end. OMG.

That was cheery.

See what I mean about today?

I think I'll go,

Wishing you an optimistic tomorrow,



(There is a choir rehearsing nearby and it truly is beautiful...see I can still see the lovely things around me, I just seem to dribble away from them.)


Beth said...

All the good days offset the ones like this.
But finish that book - quickly!

Anonymous said...

It's a fabulously well written book but I haven't been able to finish it yet (though it still sits beside my bed). It was given to me by the author, is about something important and, as I said, is so well written, so I'm committed to finishing it sometime. Let me know if it changes.

oreneta said...

Beth, I'm working on it...I find I have to skip ahead sometimes because the foreshadow something awful then it goes on to something quieter...I have to read the bad bit, then come back again.

Katrina! Hi there !!! It doesn't get better. Harder in fact, and I am nearly done. Though there is usually some balancing of the evil...

Hula Girl at Heart said...

I think you need some figs..and a tomato. Seriously, I find it weirdly compelling when I'm reading a book that brings me down and yet I can't put it down. It's like driving by an accident and looking even though you know it's going to disturb you if you look. I suppose it's because we know we need to feel the sting of the disturbing parts of life every now and then to learn how to live.

Angel said...

awww Rocky...hang in there girl....just sit back and listen to the choir....take Chuck for a hike and find some cave in the hills somewhere..where you can hide out for a couple of hours, with a bottle of wine and your book. I'll be right over! ;)

oreneta said...

Hula, I don't usually read books that are too depressing...this continued to have a current of hope throughout, and there were likable characters as well...and a logic to their, well, to their demise...or somehow seemed...right.

The situation in Burma only allows so many happy endings, what else could she do and remain true to the topic.

Beth, It would be so sweet if you could be over, girl...that would RULE! I did go for a walk in the hills, and it was wonderful...I forgot the wine, though I found a bunch of pinyons, and so I am now lightly coated in pine sap from prying them from the shells...never dull.

Anonymous said...

I hope you are having more optimistic days. I hate when I have that 'sky is falling' feeling.

oreneta said...

Dawn, the sky is falling simply sucks. I got over it, thankfully.